Khloe Kardashian Details Being on Her “Knees Screaming” When Ex Lamar Odom Burned Her Journals

Khloe Kardashian reflected on a devastating moment from her marriage to Lamar Odom, which ended legally in 2016, when he was "extremely paranoid."

By Gibson Johns Nov 19, 2025 7:40 PM
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Watch: Khloe Kardashian Details Being on Her “Knees Screaming” When Ex Lamar Odom Burned Her Journals

There's a reason Khloe Kardashian doesn't journal anymore.

The Kardashians star revealed a moment during her marriage to Lamar Odom during which he destroyed all of her journals when he was going through a "tough time."

"I haven't journaled in years," Khloe shared on the Nov. 19 episode of her Khloe in Wonder Land podcast. "I used to love to journal. I had a few journals that I journaled literally my life away, and I loved it and everything was in these journals."

"I remember my ex-husband was going through it," she continued, "he was having a tough time and he was incredibly paranoid and found these journals that he knew I did all the time and was reading them and was just convinced that I was taking notes and sending them to the government or something crazy."

The Good American founder—whose former husband has spoken about his struggles with drugs and alcohol addiction—went on to recall how devastated she was in the moment by Lamar's rash move.

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"He threw all of them into a fire in front of me and I remember sobbing, tears streaming down my face," Khloe shared. "I could remember me on my knees screaming. It was years of my life in these journals! They meant to much to me, and it was years."

"I just remember it was at my old house in our master bedroom," she went on, "on my knees screaming, sobbing, and that was the last time I journaled, because I just felt like, 'Wow, that was taken away in a f--king blink.' What was the point?"

E! News has reached out to Lamar for comment and has yet to hear back.

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Khloe's revelation comes after Lamar cryptically shared throwback photos of them together on social media with very little explanation, captioning them with phrases like "grace carried me when strength couldn’t" and "pain doesn’t scare me anymore."

Earlier this year, the former couple—who were married for seven years—reunited for the first time since their 2016 divorce on The Kardashians. After the episode aired, Khloe reflected on what it was like filming the scene with the former NBA player.

"That was so emotionally draining for me," the 41-year-old said on her podcast in July. "Not seeing someone for 10 years is crazy, but I think also seeing that person and being on camera, there were a lot of different factors."

“It was sad because he was so strange to me,” she added. “I didn’t know him, but yet I knew him so well. I didn’t think I would feel that awkward around someone that I’ve known so deeply.”

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