Amanda Kloots is dancing through her memories.
The Talk host got candid about what it was really like competing on season 30 of Dancing With the Stars in 2021, especially alongside her professional dance partner Alan Bersten.
"He was very mean to me," Amanda admitted on the Boyfriend Material with Harry Jowsey podcast Nov. 19. Although she chalked it up to his Russian upbringing, explaining, "Growing up Russian, growing up in that dance atmosphere. And he did see a lot of potential in me, and he saw that we could possibly win this thing."
Amanda added that she "got yelled at," but that she would often keep it inside because she didn't want to derail their rehearsal time if the producers wanted to do an interview about how she was feeling.
"I would just keep it bottled up," she said, "and we would just be dancing, and I would just be raging inside."
E! News has reached out to reps for Alan and ABC but has not heard back.
Still, the 42-year-old knows she was a positive influence on Alan, with whom she placed fourth that year, as Iman Shumpert and Daniella Karagach took home the famed mirror ball trophy.
"I think Alan has grown up a lot in the last couple of years," Amanda explained. "I'm saying this, and I know that he'll agree with me: I helped him become a nicer person in teaching."
The former Rockette—who shares son Elvis, 5, with late husband Nick Cordero—previously gave insight into her DWTS journey during a conversation with Katie Couric.
"The hardest part about Dancing with the Stars, I think, for me, was definitely the stress of learning a brand new dance each week and needing it to be show-ready, perfect for performance in six days," she explained in Nov. 2021. "Every dance is different because the technique is different, the style is different, what makes the dance unique is different. So, to learn it and then to feel good about it and then feel ready enough to perform it, it was exhausting both mentally and physically."
Though there were a few silver-linings, like her son getting to watch her dance.
"It was very cute because he kind of went along the journey with me," Amanda said, "and got into it and then really started liking watching me and Alan dance. He started pointing out Alan too, which was very cute."
Keep reading to see who's competing on the current season of DWTS…
Anna Delvey
The inspriation behind Inventing Anna traded her ankle bracelet for dancing shoes alongside partner Ezra Sosa. However, the fake heiress was eliminated during the season's Sept. 24 episode, with her saying that she learned "nothing" in her now-infamous, one-word farewell speech.
Ilona Maher
The Olympic rugby player was ready to ruck up the dance floor with pro Alan Bersten, finishing as the runner-up.
Chandler Kinney
The Disney Channel star tried to dance her way to the top with partner Brandon Armstrong and ultimately placed third.
Brooks Nader
The model and her partner Gleb Savchenko were ready to strut along the ballroom, but took their final bow on Oct. 15.
Reginald VelJohnson
All that mattered for the Family Matters alum and partner Emma Slater was taking home the Mirrorball Trophy. However, their journey was cut short during the second week of competition on Oct. 8.
Eric Roberts
The Dark Knight star was partnered with Britt Stewart. They were eliminated in the second week alongside Reginald and Emma.
Joey Graziadei
The Bachelor alum has found his rose between thorns in partner Jenna Johnson, winning season 33.
Tori Spelling
The alum of Beverly Hills, 90210 was oh so ready to dance alongside Pasha Pashkov. Unfortunately, the two last only one week and was cut from competition in a double elimination alongside Anna and Ezra.
Danny Amendola
The NFL pro and partner Witney Carson sure scored a touchdown on the dance floor, placing fifth in the finale.
Dwight Howard
The NBA star hoped to stand head and shoulders above the competition with partner Daniella Karagach, but was eliminated from the competition on Nov. 12.
Stephen Nedoroscik
The Olympian had his sights set on another medal—or should we say, Mirrorball Trophy—with partner Rylee Arnold, placing fourth in the Nov. 26 finale.
Phaedra Parks
The Traitors alum was sure to weed out the competition with partner Val Chmerkovskiy, but ended up getting cut from the lineup Oct. 22.
Jenn Tran
Though Bachelorette star and partner Sasha Farber were full bloom in the ballroom, they were eliminated from the competition on Oct. 29.